thoughts from the north, pt 3 – stars fall around me

moths with wings a hundred feet across beat against me, the darkness is alive with the screaming and howling of unnamed beasts, and i am braced against the slaughtering waves of everything not this, invincible in my bliss.

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Run Into Flowers

my family sleeps quietly around me, my new son on my chest, as a billion stars are born out of the afterbirth of the evening.  coyotes in the mountains and stars falling around me; a satellite tracks across the nearly midnight sky, streaking toward a destiny programmed.

i am subsumed by the perfection of the night, the air, the sound of his breathing, the fullness of my heart, and the sparkling fantastic promise of the heavens echoed by myriad fireflies in the summer night.

the elemental construction of my being, as many years ago as there are points of light in the sky, is a gift of absolute wonder, and that i can know this moment, and live through and beyond it, is a monumental tragedy, a momentous, incalculable, uncountable, weightless moment of my life from which i shall never be separated, never forget, never be lost without.

howl you demons, you angels, you beasts; howl.  

Some Ideas about God

from Entagled States

  1. I will allow my religion to change me
  2. I will resist telling other people how to change.
  3. I will seek to make my religion a channel for gratitude and appreciation.
  4. I will avoid using my religion as a channel for my anger.
  5. I will expect my faith to challenge me to live ethically.
  6. I will give up needing to be certain about everything.
  7. I will allow my religion to both care for and challenge my insecurities.
  8. I will pay attention when my culture and my faith are in conflict.
  9. I will be wary of leaders who use religion to sow hatred, fear or division
  10. I will allow my religion to temper my passion with humility.
  11. I will work to be for something good even when it easier to be against something bad.
  12. I will not allow my religion to become a fad or a trend.
  13. I will allow my religion to keep pace with my maturity.
  14. I will remember that my religion is for the benefit of the people and world around me.
  15. I will avoid holding on too tightly to my religion as a personal possession.
  16. I will give up punishment and shame as tool for religious persuasion.
  17. When I fail, I will expect my religion to challenge me to be responsible.
  18. I will not let the fact that I am an imperfect practitioner of my religion deter me from living my faith.
  19. I will not let the imperfection of other people’s faith deter me from having faith.
  20. I will accept beauty, fun, spontaneity and companionship as signs of God at work.

  

God's Food

Once upon a time there were two sisters.  The first had no children and was rich.  The second was a widow who had five children and was so poor that she no longer had enough food for herself and her children.  So she went to her sister in distress and said, “My children and I are suffering a great deal from hunger.  Since you’re so rich, give us some bread.”  However, the sister, who was as rich as a gold mine and also had a heart made of stone, replied, “I myself have nothing in the house”, and she turned her poor sister away with angry words.

After a while the rich sister’s husband came home and wanted to cut a slice of bread for himself.  However, as he made the first slice in the loaf, red blood gushed out.  When his wife saw it, she became horrified and told him what had happened.  He rushed to the widow’s house to help her, but as he entered her living room he found her praying and holding the two youngest children in her arms.  The three oldest were lying dead on the ground.  He offered her some food, but she declined.  ”We no longer desire earthly food.  Thanks to God three of us are already content, and He will answer the rest of our prayers as well.”  She had barely uttered these words, when her two little ones stopped breathing, whereupon her heart broke, and she sank to the ground dead.

-From the Brothers Grimm